Do you want to kiss me? She said
and I said, kiss me what?
and she said, kiss me lips
and I said, I'll just finish me chips
and she said, this offer expires in 2 seconds
so I promptly kissed her
and she said, vinegar
and I said, what?
and she said, balsamic, I prefer balsamic
and the way she said balsamic
was like a 17L V8 engine
starting up inside me –
inside me guts
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I'm Tired, Semi-Conscious
I want to be broken like a matchstick
snapped, found useless, discarded
(I want to be) like a piece of litter that blows up
and settles in your lap and then you brush it away
as inconsequential and trivial as that
(I see a perfunctory moment of disdain as you flick me off)
I want to be tossed like a tennis ball afloat on stormy waves
(I want to be) made to feel inadequate, way below par
just so totally not a member of the gang
I want to get one out of ten
I want you to tell your friends what an absolute jerk I am
a twat – tell them not to waste their time
tell them to tell everyone, tell them to laugh
(I want to be) pointed at and ridiculed
bullied, hunted for sport