A Pack of Cards

fresh from the box
smooth and glossy against my hands
slightly stick together
shuffle like ballerinas
gentle rattling
flick and plop onto the table

My father
in New Orleans

The Ace of Spades
does not want to live

Queen of hearts
loved Alice

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Julia, I can't believe me
even now

I promise
on my own blood
to go back

I can't believe me
even now I've plastered it
for decades            with repetition

I'm going back
to before you went mad
you were taken

I can't believe me
I set you up

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